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I'm alive y'all
Sep. 6th, 2026 06:36 pmHello! I know I haven't posted in like a year. I'm alive, but man this year has been tough. Chronic illness is no joke. I have been told by doctors and nurses I need to ignore the pain and just do things anyway. I feel this is easier said than done.
kitarella_imagines, if you see this thanks for the lovely message and for thinking of me despite my inactivity on here. I really appreciate it.
Other than negative stuff, I suppose a nice thing is I have been reading a lot more this year. I am having trouble figuring out what I actually want from fiction though. I read the book The Never-ending Story after seeing the movie again for the first time since I was a kid (by the way, the score of that film is incredible, but I am biased because I am an intractable synth lover). The second half is wild! It wasn't without flaws but the world and the prose were so beautiful. I will be thinking about that book for a long time. I've also been reading some nonfiction, mostly about parts of history that don't get discussed much.
I've also been attempting casual self study of German for about a month but I am feeling a bit demotivated and I'm having trouble getting into a flow that works for me. I am monolingual so I've never really done this before, so I feel lost. Mostly I am doing flashcards and trying to watch some channels on YouTube (Chill German is quite a good one btw).
I really hope I write something in the coming year. I do have an idea but I fear it is way outside of the scope of my talents. But I guess you sort of have to ignore that.
I wish I could get myself invested enough in something to write fanfiction again, it is an excellent way to shake off the dust. I read some of my old fanfictions from when I was like 16 and it is much better than what I am able to write now. Which was disheartening, to be honest. Oh well. I am very rusty.
Anyway, that's all I can think of for the moment. I hope Autumn treats everyone well. Tschüss!
-Ash
kitarella_imagines, if you see this thanks for the lovely message and for thinking of me despite my inactivity on here. I really appreciate it.
Other than negative stuff, I suppose a nice thing is I have been reading a lot more this year. I am having trouble figuring out what I actually want from fiction though. I read the book The Never-ending Story after seeing the movie again for the first time since I was a kid (by the way, the score of that film is incredible, but I am biased because I am an intractable synth lover). The second half is wild! It wasn't without flaws but the world and the prose were so beautiful. I will be thinking about that book for a long time. I've also been reading some nonfiction, mostly about parts of history that don't get discussed much.
I've also been attempting casual self study of German for about a month but I am feeling a bit demotivated and I'm having trouble getting into a flow that works for me. I am monolingual so I've never really done this before, so I feel lost. Mostly I am doing flashcards and trying to watch some channels on YouTube (Chill German is quite a good one btw).
I really hope I write something in the coming year. I do have an idea but I fear it is way outside of the scope of my talents. But I guess you sort of have to ignore that.
I wish I could get myself invested enough in something to write fanfiction again, it is an excellent way to shake off the dust. I read some of my old fanfictions from when I was like 16 and it is much better than what I am able to write now. Which was disheartening, to be honest. Oh well. I am very rusty.
Anyway, that's all I can think of for the moment. I hope Autumn treats everyone well. Tschüss!
-Ash
